what happened with the poem

October 15, 2009

Daniel wanted to know about this so I dedicate this post to him at at time when I was feeling especially downcast (so often lately) I received a lovely letter from the poetry editor of a magazine (not especially known for literature but still for fine writing and with national distribution) she was so gracious and encouraging about all the poems I sent and I was so pleased and then I asked her if it was perhaps possible to get advance payment since money here has been soooo tight and the two poems she selected weren’t due to appear until Summer 2010 now this is not unusual to commit so far in the future and though I wasn’t exactly stoked about getting my money in advance and sure enough she said they just couldn’t and that was okay because it was enough to just know you know so several weeks later a dear friend told me how she’d enjoyed my poem that she’d seen in the magazine so I wrote my friend and she confirmed that yes they had indeed published it early and so I was so pleased but now here comes the weird part she said if you don’t have the check and contributor’s copies already you really should soon so I was walking on air but then they didn’t show and didn’t show and didn’t show and when I wrote her back she said she’d look into it and she was sorry they’d gotten my name wrong in the table of contents so I said okay thanks and so I waited some more and now I’m phoning book stores all over Dallas and none of them carry this magazine and while it IS a liberal newsmagazine out of Texas it’s extremely intelligent and clever and articulate and I used to work in bookstores so I know it used to be available everywhere so now I’m calling the libraries all over Dallas and it’s the same thing so now I’n REALLY feeling paranoid and I happen to know a very very evil woman who hurt me in the past completely through  chicanery and cunning so now I’m wondering if somehow x is behind all this because she’s capable of intensely despicable behavior and finally I find one library in Plano that has a copy so I drive out there and make two photocopies which eases my mind just a little bit I mean at least NOW I know it’s really been published (and I spot a line-break I could fix) and I still haven’t heard back from my friend the poetry editor so now I write to the main editor and he tells me the check is in the mail (hehe) so he sounds sincere and sure enough three days later I get the check for 50 dollars and write my poetry editor friend to let her know then another friend mails me her copy to tide me over then two weeks later I get like 6 copies from the magazine then next after that my friend tells me she’ll be in Dallas because her mother broke her arm and needs help with errands so could she stop by for a moment and I said sure so I get up early to bathe before she arrives (not easy) and she arrives and hugs me three times and says she saw me in a dream the night before and I look just like her dream and she has brought me packets of tea and soup and books of poetry and literary journals including a copy of ploughshares with two of her poems in it and still warm banana bread and at least ten copies of the magazine and yes I’m thinking it was grace


Tonight at Tom Thumb

October 8, 2009

Tonight at Tom Thumb I saw yellow calla lilies and bright rusty orange daisies and creamy white roses. I found shampoo with aloe and wondered how it would smell in the shower. I like to write poems about showering with other guys in locker rooms with the shower heads all in one communal space. It’s not necessarily erotic just happy guys lathering and singing and pissing and farting and scrubbing together without animosity and toxicity.

Spicy Miso Soup

October 6, 2009

This soup takes about 1 hour to prepare and eat. It makes 4–8 bowls. If you lose the recipe, you can find the basic recipe on the back of the Genmai Miso Packet. Miso is soybean and brown rice, aged and fermented with sea salt. This mixture is very high in minerals, somewhat high in protein. It is a food that is easy to digest and that fuels clean metabolism.

Fresh Ginger

3 Cloves Garlic

1/4 head of red cabbage

1 carrot

2 green onions

1/3 white onion

1 celery stalk

1 pack of Miso

1/3 jalapeno pepper

1/2 serrano pepper

1 TBS green pepper

1 TBS red pepper

1 tsp cayenne pepper

1 bay leaf

1 bottle of Tamari Soy Sauce

Sesame Oil

PLUS: You may add any herbs appropriate to your illness or condition.

1. Boil 6 cups of water. Add bay leaf. No salt. Add cayenne and 1 chopped clove of garlic. Cover and simmer.

2. Chop or press 2 cloves of garlic. Cut the cabbage in long THIN strips. Cut the peppers into small diced pieces. Dice the carrots. The white onion, the celery, dice the peppers, and a piece of fresh ginger. Slice the green onion in THIN cross sections.

3. Lightly saute’ the above ingredients with a light touch of sesame oil. The process may require two separate times to saute’ all the ingredients. Be liberal with the spice and pepper. Pour the mixture into the simmering pot. The saute’ is to release the flavors, not to “cook.”

4. Bring the mixture back to a light boil. Add enough water to well cover all the vegetables.

5. Remove from heat and add the Miso mixture. (Miso is a dark brown paste. See instruction on the back of the packet.) Do not boil the Miso. Mix and stir. Add Tamari. Do not overdo Tamari. Serve and eat with crackers.

ongoing prayer

October 6, 2009

Give me courage to laugh off the toxic ridiculous world. Let me find infinite grace in the ever-deepening possibility of this moment.

October 6, 2009
cheers from Christopher

cheers from Christopher

To begin

October 6, 2009

This is a blog for my friends. Those I love, cherish and hold dearly in my heart. Those new friends I hope to make. I will try to make it first and foremost, frank. Maybe some whistles and bells later.

First entry : 2:57 AM : Tuesday, October 6th

October 6, 2009

Another night I’ve reneged on my promise to get to bed early. Had supper with Peter not long ago at Mediterranean restaurant and though we talked about many sad things it was great to see him after so much time apart. Need to get questionnaire to ODO 13 participants they’ve already had to wait too long and I just need to get it to them. Tomorrow must write my reviews of Grey Gardens and local production of NUNSENSE at Transfiguration Episcopal. Maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up without a headache. I bet a lot of guys (like me) keep a bottle by the bed so I can piss without making the numerous trips to the bathroom that jeopardize my sleep. I’d like a smoke before bed but it’s probably not a good plan. I like feeling calm outdoors though and looking at the sky, even if it’s all clouds.